Monday, February 09, 2009

What must it feel like

What does it feel like when no one cares
if you're hungry, did you eat everything at daycare?
if you're hurt or hurting
if you're sick or well, (your nose hurts, it's raw from being wiped)
if you have clothing or a clean diaper
if you're cold
if you have a crib or bed to sleep in, do you have enough covers
if you're still too clumsy to walk correctly
if you still can't talk
Who worries and says "What's wrong with my baby, somethings not right,something has to be done!"
These are only basic things.
What does it feel like when drugs & alcohol take over your life so completely that you don't care about any of those things for your very own flesh & blood? A mother's reason for living? Your pride & joy? Surely you must have cared at some point? Was he ever your pride? your pure joy, just to look at him? Would you have ever thought twice to smack down anyone who dared hurt him? Even if it was you? Did you ever have grand dreams for him? for you?
He needs to know what it feels like to be loved and nurtured and to simply know that someone cares.
Yes, I care. But what I do will only last a little while.
But why don't you?
He needs a mother, a child always needs it's mother and a father too. If you really cared about him, you would give him that, one way or another.
But I see
you don't care.
So I hurt for him now
he'll be hurt enough later on
If you only knew...........

3 comments:

Min said...

Oh honey, I know. I know. Poor little guy.

PeWee said...

Truly, if you only knew...

gutwrenching

Lovingmyamazinglife said...

Awww..So sad.I get so tired of this same story being played out.Hang in their.