Thursday, May 07, 2009

4 diaper boxes

It all came down to 4 boxes of stuff. They left with more than they came with, including a little piece of our hearts.
I cried more today than I have in years.
I feel worse today than I have in a very long time.
Today, I don't think I'm a very good person.

12 comments:

QuEEn oF tHe cAstLe said...

I feel your pain D. You are doing the best you can for these babies! Your family HAS to come first! If YOU don't prioritize them...WHO WILL??!?! To the people at DFACS...it's only a 9-5 job. The people there could NEVER do what we do. You're in my prayers!

Perri said...

You gave all you had to give - even at the risk of losing your job. I pray you find a sense of peace over this decision. It was the right one.

Momma Rae and the Deputy said...

aw :( i hope today brightens for you. but to honest im just "sorry". Id cry along with you if i knew i'd be able to stop.

Kellie said...

I'm so sorry you're hurting. I know it's little comfort at the moment, but you really did do the right thing.

Nicole said...

=(

Kathy's Korner said...

((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

Like the above poster said...your family has to come first....even though these babes became a part of your family like....with out support this was what you had to do and that is really OK!!! IT IS!!

Hang in there!!

Lovingmyamazinglife said...

So sorry.In some ways I am sure you feel better,but others I am sure worse.Hang in their.I think in a few days,you will realize this was best.

Anonymous said...

You made the decision you had to make. You really didn't have much choice. You are a very good person caught in an impossible situation not of your own making. Cry as much as you need to, then go on doing what you know is necessary.

Kellie said...

Just a note to wish you a wonderful Mother's Day!

Mothering4Money said...

Hope you were able to have a decent mother's day. I know these past events have been hard. Hang in there.

Min said...

Aw, D, I'm just getting caught up...

Dang, I'm just sorry.

Big hugs!

Min

Haf Dozen Reasons....... said...

Wow you have been under alot of stress. So sorry to read about it!!!

Hope you had a great Mother's Day as YOU very much deserved it!!!

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I had a small one 15 yrs ago that juiced well other than the screen kept plugging up so had to clean it out between produce which was a pain.

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